There is this blank sheet of paper staring at me and here I sit with a blank mind. I am waiting for the Lord to help me decide what to write. I am a blank canvas awaiting His nudge… but I feel nothing pouring forth. How often do I sit back and wait for the Lord? Mostly when I write and at times when I paint. I should when I pray but I get so worried that I will miss praying for someone that I had promised I would pray for, I end up giving the Lord various commands. Get so & so well, find him a job, comfort her, bring a Christian man into her life, save their house, find them a house, give them wisdom… my lists go on and on and on…until I fall asleep. Or I neatly wrap it up with “Your will be done”… did I really mean that?
Can you imagine how God must feel? I can’t. Did your little one ever want to eat something that would make them very sick or even kill them? My grandkids and I were talking about blowing bubbles one day and they asked me what would happen if they drank the liquid. I, being full of exaggerated stories (that they love) stated that if someone drank it, every time they burped, bubbles would come out of their mouth. I get a call the next day; the oldest 2 were in trouble for talking #3 into swallowing the bubble water during a bubble blowing play time. She threw up (did not burp bubbles)... Oops. My daughter could not figure out what made them do that. (I did confess)
(See how easily I get side-tracked. Happens to me when I pray too).
When we see one of those little ones go to eat something or grab something that could hurt them, we stop them immediately. They don’t necessarily understand. They think they should have it… and if they don’t get it they start crying or stomping. We don’t give in to them for their own good even if it makes us feel bad that they are crying. We know better. I wonder sometimes if that is how God feels?
We, or I should speak just for myself, I whine and tell God what I think is best yet He knows the end from the beginning. He knows what the end result is before the result happens. And if He listened to me, I would probably be throwing up like my #3 granddaughter. What I want may turn out to be the worst thing that could happen to me.
Years ago I did a Bible study on the word wait. I found that instead of being a passive word, it is active. It is to be expectant of something to come.
Our society is one of instant gratification… and you have to admit it is everywhere in the United States (I cannot speak for other countries). Waiting annoys us. We get crabby in grocery lines, we shop online so as to avoid the Christmas crowds, and we get inpatient with slow service in a restaurant. And who enjoys waiting in a laundromat? We are just expecting it all as soon as possible!
But God is not trapped in our time line. He has His own that is not measured the way we measure. His timing is perfect. Which is why waiting on the Lord, is the best way. And I do find my best times of prayer is when I wait on Him to guide me and trust He knows the rest that lays heavy on my heart. I will wait upon the Lord, my soul waits and on His word I will put my hope (Psalm 130:5).
Another way I could put it is I will expect from the Lord from the depths of my soul and always with the hope I have found in His word.
(above is an original art print by EllieLee)
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