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11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
I have seen this Scripture countless times. I have read it and understood it and accepted it. One might believe that is all it would take so I can sit back and just realize that every twist and turn in my life is known by God, so who am I to question it.
It seems that there is one issue in my life that I wonder about. I have two daughters: Jenifer and my grandsons, Cole and Noah live here with me. Jodi, who is 17 months younger than Jenifer lives in Ohio with her husband of 6 years, Jon. Jodi and I have always had a tumultuous relationship. I give part of the blame to the fact that I had to go to work and at the age of 3, Jodi became very depressed and eventually became very attached to the babysitter who was a very close friend of our family. To clarify, the babysitter was an adult female friend of mine with 4 teenagers of her own. So strange that Jenifer stayed close to me but Jodi just became more distant as the years passed and her teen years were very trying.
Jodi moved out at the age of 18 and she is now going to be 38. So, for the past 20 years our relationship has been on and off. It is not by my choice but somewhere along the line, Jodi has decided that her life is better without me in it and she won't budge.
I have been praying. Other people are praying for us. I have written her numerous letters. I have acknowledged every holiday with a card and or gift. There is never any response. I have pleaded with God to soften Jodi's heart.
I just do not understand why God would have this in His plans for me, to be separated from a daughter I love so much.
Mother's Day is coming - I have not gotten a card from her in 20 years. Her birthday is in June. I miss her terribly at this time of year.
I want to be obedient to God. I live by His Word. The Scripture says that He does not want to harm me. I also believe in His time, not mine. I just don't want to go to His arms without having some sort of relationship with Jodi.
Thank you so much for allowing me to bring this out and I value any and all comments.
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